SORRY MY READERS//ON LOOKERS,

MY LAST POST WAS MARCH 25TH 2011, AND THAT VERY NEXT DAY I FOUND OUT MY FATHER HAD PASSED AWAY..HE WAS 42 YEARS YOUNG WITH A FACE AND ATTITUDE OF A 21 YEAR OLD!! HE WILL TRULY BE MISSED.


REST EASY DAD.
steven anthony reed



YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, thats me and him LOL :)

ahhhh ,
why is today my 1st day tasting this??
ive been in love with peanut butter since forever
but this is the shiii lol

pirates of the caribbean 4

FOR OLD (( MYSPACE )) TIMES SAKE!

MY LIFE AS OF 1/29/11

1. What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel?
looking into someones eyes when they are telling me how they feel

2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry?
i dont hold on to anger

3. You will die in three minutes. Last call?
to buddha, thank you for guiding me..

4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
i would better myself

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love.
TRUST you cant love w/o trust!!

6. You are walking to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time youre fired. Do you save the dog?
call for help,

7. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
nope, revenge is sweet though..

8. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it?
dezzy is welllllll worth it!!!!

9. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
of course ;)

10. Does sex=love?
nope..

11. Are you old fashioned?
nope..

12. Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex?
lol....nope

13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
i dont love them back

14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up?
living

15. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
last night, my mom

16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?
my shyness...id wrap it with a bow and burry it in the bottom of my closet

17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
a gun, and buddha

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
if i knew how...why not?

19. You are holding onto your grandmother's dying hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be?
the newborn once my grandma grabs it

20. When and how was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel?
4 months ago & how? i just said it

If You had three months to live:

21. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
nope, cause than they'll stop living

22. What do you do with your remaining days?
LIVE SMILE & INSPIRE

23. Would you be afraid?
not more afraid than living w/no life

NIKE WOMEN survey

MY SCHOOL PROJECT SO DO IT BITCHESSSS!
POR FAVOR ;)

*MOMENT OF SILENCE PLEASE*

IMA NEED EVERYBODY TO PRAY TONIGHT EVEN IF ITS JUST FOR 2 SECONDS,

CALL THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE, AND TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM.

EVERY MOMENT COUNTS, SO WHY WASTE THEM WAITING?

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&& WHILE YOU'RE PRAYING PLEASE KEEP MY LITTLE HOMIE (3YEAR OLD

NATHAN MURRAY) IN YOUR PRAYERS! HE WAS AT THE PARK TODAY (FRIDAY

- AUGUST 6, 2010) PLAYING WHEN SOMEONE PUSHED HIM TO HIGH IN A TIRE

SWING & HE FLEW INTO THE METAL BAR HIS UNCLE TOOK HIM TO THE

DOCTOR BECAUSE OF THE HUGE KNOT ON HIS HEAD && THEY FOUND OUT

BLOOD WAS ON HIS BRAIN AND HE HAD TO BE FLOWN TO CHILDRENS

HOSPITAL. SO WHILE YOU GUYS CONTINUE TO PRAY DO NOT FORGET ABOUT

MY LITTLE "PUFFER POO" NATHAN! HE LOVES TRUCKS (EVEN GARBAGE

TRUCKS) AIRPLANES AND FAST CARS, OO! AND HE LOVES WATCHING

SPONGEBOB && DORA THE EXPLORER ;)... IF YOUR HEART HAS ANY ROOM OR

IF YOUR MIND HAS AN EXTRA SPACE ON THE LIST PLEASE ADD "NATHAN MURRAY" TO IT.

*THANK YOU VERY MUCH IN ADVANCE*

SOMETIMES WOUNDS NEVER HEAL....

I MISS YOU SO MUCH I DONT KNOW HOW TO DEAL...

LIFE IS SOO PRECIOUS,

I CANT BELIEVE YOUR IMPATIENT

YOU MOVE WITH NO CAUTION

STEADY CHASING

THE WRONGER THINGS

CLOSE YOUR EYES

SPREAD YA WINGS

WELL BREATHE EASY...BE EASY..

XOXO, FROM ME TO YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

IM SOO HAPPY IM U

AND UR SOO HAPPY UR ME TOO!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME LOL :)

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO ME && 18TH 2 MY BIRTHDAY TWINN SELENA GOMEZ :)


*** updates..

i replied to EVERY birthday comment i recieved on facebook, twitter, && text messages lol i ran out of shit to say!!!!!!!!!

brought my 1st legal bottle and drunk it all by myself in last than 4mins :-X

lol i love derrhea she is fuhking hiliarious

i got "Spider Bite" piercings my FIRST and LAST piercings lol pain it was...

♥

WORKING ON SOME ARTWORK FOR MY LOGO T-SHIRTS :)

I PROMISE I WILL SNEAK PEEK SOON ;)

( ....HOPEFULLY THIS COLOR GIVES YOU A CLUE.... )

UNTIL THAN ,

xoxo

Cancer
June 22 - July 22
Tuesday Apr 13, 2010

The tortoise beats the hare today, so don’t let someone’s speedy pace throw you off course. Keep putting one foot in front of the other, focusing primarily on what’s in front of you NOW. Projecting too far into the future slows you down–you’ll worry and get anxious, and for no good reason. Let budding relationships and opportunities unfold 24 hours at a time.

Cancer
June 22 - July 22
Monday Mar 08, 2010
Don’t be shy about interrupting today. If someone is droning on, and you haven’t a clue what he’s talking about, stop him and ask for clarification. This is actually a compliment, as it shows that you’re seeking to truly understand. If you’re the one leading a discussion, check in with your audience periodically, instead of issuing a breathless monologue without pause. The point is, after all, to get your point across effectively.

can i have this dress hello? its made w/vinyls incase nobody else peeped that but me ;)
rude boy = 2days!

i cant lie it was me ;)

(VivaLaHandBag)

check out my old blog!!

Cancer
June 22 - July 22
Monday Feb 08, 2010
Anxiety you’re feeling about a commitment is a result of being half-in, half-out. Unless you invest yourself fully, you’ll always feel worried, claustrophobic, and uncertain. Today, see what it feels like to dive in with both feet. New solutions and possibilities open up once you’ve closed the escape hatch behind you.

* . Formspring .

so half of my twitter friends have this thing called formspring so ima give it a go! i love answering questions ;) it makes me feel important lol..so go ahead and dont be afraid i dont bite unless you like it..lol ask here :) and i will respond TRUTHFULLY scouts honor!

* . Merry Christmas .

so for christmas my little sis has been secretly planning my SUPER RIHANNA CHRISTMAS!! one of the girl we know dad works for rihanna so they have been whispering and planning rihanna to call me for christmas. she has been my idol since 2004 and sadly when the concerts come around i never have enough $$ or when i try to win the tickets i come close but not exactly! i buy every magazine with her on the cover, and own every CD i am a super fan. and even though i have never been to a concert i watch every performance, and do everything. i am addicted and in love with her! cant wait for my phone call i will let you all know how it goes :)

* . merry FUCKING christmas .

yes you, and to everyone else too!

its fucking Christmas eve and everybody should be jolly well how about you take that jolly stick and stick it up your uptight ass! Ive been having a bad fucking week, well a bad fucking 2009! and like no joke i am ready to EXPLODE! i don't have my remedy (music/ipod touch) because someone stole it..the year ended with "you re always too busy for me now hehe" and than finding out she got killed 2 or 3 days later. life is never enough! you can get tired but look you never put in enough!! everybody says keep working, well bitch you've been working longer than i and your still in the same position as i.

my mom has been gone on vay'kay since monday so its only been me & my baby sister at the house everynite..lord knows like i know I LOVE SILENCE!! specially when im stressing..but my granny invited herself...and my 12yr old sis..and my cousin who has autism..plus a 1yr old baby! plus no ipod to block them out...plus a bad school call..all this yelling and crying and bitching got me to the point where i had to walk around the block at 10 something at night in the fucking cold before i blow a fuse..than i come back home and i feel like joking im always fucking joking than shes like lemme call your mom..all the while while i was saying this shit i was laughing..so than her and my sis tried to cock funky ass attitudes with me so i stood there cause yes idgaf lol than she starts talking bout some irrelevant shit i dont even remember cause all i could here was her loud ass voice..so i got loud so she could here me..than she throws me this shit "dont you yell at me" and im like "well you yelling at me" than my punk ass lil sis and her both starts yelling and standing up like they finna double team me or something so i had to let them know back the fuck up or "i will beat both of yall" or some shit to that level lol but its hella funny cause i never get mad i can just be really fucking serious...so the bitch called me bipolar oh fucking well..i juss dont have the life i had back in july..or a couple of weeks ago..everything is fucking misplaced and its destroying me slowly..i want to runaway and be alone by myself for the rest of my life..change my number, have some drinks, get some more tattoos..tattoos is like an emo cutting themselves for me real shit its sooo stress releving..

but she left to go to her house where she actually belongs..silent mode lmao..come on how old are you? and telling my sister not to talk to me well i hope i wont have to see them than..and as hard as i am i really dont want to apologize, because i know shes gon give me some halved ass attitude and some more bullshit after she called the whole wide world and mars prob last night and turned them against me OH WELL i did it! life does go on, bitches! you cant take shit and than use your age to fucking get by..you started this shit well handle it! i was gon apologize until someone called me at 7am talking about "your granny said urgent call her whats going on"

but hey im juss venting let me fucking vent!

and now this school shit has got me tripping outta my mind!! i dont know how and if i could handle it without my damn ipod! which some fat stanky ass bitch ass nigga stole from me! if i wasnt nice i would go in into detail how much i hate him and how ugly his baby is..and how some other bad shit im thinking right about now...but ima keep it positive a little bit...and now this fucking alarm system decided to pick today to beep non stop! um wow i really want to pull this shit out of the fucking wall!

welcome to the life of a FIDM ex con! :)

* . Neglected .

sorry i havent really been around.

september was the worst month for me by far...i lost one important person in my life my little boo Desiree "Dezzy" Davis to street violence. i know i probably posted about her here before when it was her birthday or even tweeted about her tryna drag me to lil waynes concert LOL..but i love my little boo..she had just turned 17 on june 27th and was a senior at Oakland Tech High school..she was one of the reason i use to laugh none stop! now my world is semi incomplete i dont want to go out i feel bored all the time..i never have passion anymore.

i just havent been myself alot lately, idk its like ive closed back up..but im slowly and surely making my way back to normal.

also in september, my moms dad passed away like one week after Dezzy. his funeraly was 3 days before hers. so i just have been dealing with alot. i wont dwell in this subject because my wounds are healing..AND I AM FINE :) everyone heals differently.

in october school started back :) only 2 more weeks left! man i havent blogged all quarter its kind of scary lol! but i only took 3 classes this quarter (late registration) and they were actually pretty cool! bus. of fashion, english, history of western art II. alot of work but it has been worth it!

and i see i stopped posting in July, so i have to tell you in August i started working for Cal Bears :) and it was amazing! the season is over and the boys did good and i hope everything with jahvid is going better since the season is over.

but sorry for neglecting you all..THE WAIT IS OVA :)
IM BACKKKK lol

* . 1OOth Post .

Here's a throwback for my 100th post Ciara with Promise. I swear when this CD came out is was my shit, and it still is besides the fact someone stole it because I own have the case :(. But When this video first came out, I was like this girl is actually the shit.. specially with how she use to always wear baggy clothes and underneath it all is this beautiful body. && she brought the high waist pants back ;]. besides the short hair cry baby thing lol the video is hot.. I cant say I have a fave song cause I loved the whole album. But promise was my fave because of the video, than My Love, So Hard, Get in Fit in, Crush, everything! I miss my CD :(

Vs.

What was your fave song on Ciara: The Evolution?

And are you mad @ the Follow up? Fantasy Ride or Super C [or whatever shes calling it these days]..I think it looks pretty cheap. What happen to her? Did 50 sucka punch her career? What ya'll think?!

ps. since your soooo ashamed of the cover, can I please have your body Ci?